Sharing my story of a long struggling road

[Tcbabyy]

well i joined for a reason, to give my support, meet new people, and also to share a long bumpy road dealing with losses, struggling and almost failing school. I am now in my 3rd year of college graduating with an associates, but my stories go as far as back in middle school.

I had only started off in middle school when my mother was pregnat with my brother.. little did we know, she was getting signs of cancer but no doctor could detect what it was. after months of not seeing my mother, she was in the hospital so of course being a little girl at the time i had no idea what was going on. Finally, she was diagnosed with hotchkins which usually a woman her age at the time rarely gets. She was unable to get any form of kemo or radiation due to my brother still being in her belly. I stopped caring with school, was more focused on my mom being ok like every child would. The tumor that came out of my mother words cannot describe. My stepfather had told me the tumor was the size of a human head, in order to get to the tumor they had to break her breast bone, and remove a portion of her diaphram. My brother was also delivered a month early before she went into the surgery as well and because of all of her difficulties he ended up being diagnosed with CKD (chronic kidney disease) he also had some surgeries when he was a baby but we are constantly monitoring his kidneys.. my mom has been in remission and i really dont know what i would have done if i lost her. My brother is progressively doing better and really stood the doctors up because he wasnt supposed to live this long and im thankful that he is.


After my mother was in remission my grandfather whom i was very close with and practically raised me as a baby was diagnosed with colon cancer (runs in my family ) throughout his battle he lived in FL at the time and the doctors did not seem to care and overdosed him with radiation which destroyed everything in his body. 6 years ago i had lost him and really have been lost ever since, i loved him to death and i still think about him everyday. the only thing that cleared my mind was going to a psychic (yes i am a beleiver) and he was with me the whole time assuring me he is whereever i go.

Last year on superbowl sunday i had also lost my nana (stepdads mother) to pancreatic cancer. she kept it all from us on how bad her condition was.

Cancer is a horrible thing anyone can get people tend to give up like my grandfather or battle like my mother but for those battling now, never give up because you will never realize how much the loved ones you leave behind are suffering as much as you did.

[AntX]

I am seriously at a loss for words, You and the rest of your family are very strong people.... Thank you for sharing your story, I hope it helps others find strength within themselves

[Tcbabyy]

no problem its hard but i know a lot of people give up and i hate seeing it. people should never give up and should fight until the very end

[MTZVibe]

no problem its hard but i know a lot of people give up and i hate seeing it. people should never give up and should fight until the very end

thats exactly what i keep saying. Their are a lot of loved ones that do care about you and if you are experiencing this horrible malfunction of a disease, dont stop fighting.

as for the story. im so so sorry to hear about your losses. thank you for sharing the story with us. it is good to see that you are still trying your best to keep going after the losses. im sure they would want you to continue on and complete your life. take it easy and if you need anything, always feel free to let us know.

[AntX]

no problem its hard but i know a lot of people give up and i hate seeing it. people should never give up and should fight until the very end

you will make it far in life, great attitude and very positive. hope to get to know you better on the forums

[jdm dc4]

you are such a trooper you have deffinately had you share of this disease, you know, everybody has to stay strong and sometimes all we can do is trudge.

[Tcbabyy]

yea its crazy with the cancer that runs in my family... i actually had a scare a few years ago, i thought i had cervical cancer but thank god it wasnt !!!  you have to have to stay positive it keeps you strong and going

i have my horse to ride to deal with stress and my dog lol

[AntX]

I love the horse, Its nice living in Saratoga in the Summer with the Horses EVERYWHERE

[Nightmistwalker]

thanks for sharing your life line with us,,yes this disease its horrible in any form and a positive attitude keeps things going down the right path but after going thru treatments and meeting other patients i don't think of anyone as giving up, i am more to the belief that they know their time is running short and are trying to make it as easy on themselves as possible.i know it is hard for loved ones to watch one of their own fading away and they want to hold onto them as long as possible,,to me ,,the family is being very selfish in asking that person to do so,,if they realuzed the pain and torment they have to endure just to stay a few months is unbelievable. anyways always show support and love even when the patient is being rude and mean,,don't blame them ,,they are not themselves,,wishing everyone much luv for the upcoming year..kev

[SaabRX]

Being strong is what matters, you have to be to heal.  Thank you for sharing your story with us